I want you to know that right from the moment you came into my life everything became magical. All those stares, those smile of yours, whenever you fool me around, gave me the feeling that life is so much better with you.
We had all those random dates, 3 am talks, long walks and even unexpected surprise visit at home bringing my favorite fried chicken when you know it’s my red day.
We had all the best days of our lives and no one can ever take away the memories we’ve had.
I never took you for granted when in fact you were not just my lover. You were my best friend, travel companion, food buddy and even my partner in being silly at times.
Until such time you became cold. I thought you were just having a rough day at work or there’s something that bothers you. I didn’t mind to ask first because I was expecting that you would talk to me and request right away to give you my tightest hug, tap you and tell you everything’s gonna be fine. But, you didn’t.
As days passed by, my world began to shatter, my bed became my best friend, walls became more meaningful to me.
Little by little, I began to lose the people who believed in us. I never felt agitated at first because as long as I got you, us, I got the whole world ahead of me.
It was on our 4th year anniversary,
You told me you wanted to talk,
I was so excited to see you that I came home rushing after work.
I cooked your favorite steak, we had wine together. Out of the blue, you mentioned you’re breaking up with me. It was a big slap on my face. Everything went blank and I remained speechless as tears were falling down.
I kept on asking you for the reason, but all those words you uttered was just you’re not happy anymore. I begged and even hugged you tight
but you still managed to walk away.
Trust me, I was too eager to chase you but on that moment, I told myself I need to be strong.
YOU WOULDN’T LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME.The man I loved for 4 years left and gave up on me. I’m writing you this because it took me a year to realize that love doesn’t always end with happy endings.
Yes, I won’t hide that I suffered a lot and had to go through with those healing process. That’s love and it’s part of love.
I’m sorry for trusting you not to leave me,
I’m sorry for not giving you the love more than you deserved, I’m sorry for being true with my emotions since day 1, I’m sorry for loving you too much.
Even if we didn’t end up together, I still pray for your own happiness. I had loved you more than anyone else. You never failed.
I’m sorry, but I’m letting you go.