It started last year when I found out I was facing depression. A point where everything is fine but you would feel like there’s something missing. Normally, we would get this from breakups, a job that turned us down, someone close to you neglected you or someone you trust lied to you.
You began to hate having any acquaintances and live with the idea that people will just leave you the moment you get attached to them.
Trust issues will be your mate.
You would feel like you’re in a closed room full of doubts and unexplainable emotions around it.
I’ve seen myself all throughout the worse days of my life whenever it attacks, everything around me including my thoughts is all in “blank”. That gave me an idea why some people urge to commit suicide instead of depriving of stuff that can allow them to ignore it. Seriously, you can’t avoid it.
I’ve been fighting for this from time to time. Tears would just fall without any reason and that would make me feel how worthless I am.
DEPRESSION KILLS YOU. THE MORE YOU THINK ABOUT IT, THE MORE IT KILLS YOUR PERSONALITY AND RUINS YOUR LIFE.
To someone who is struggling and been fighting for this, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE. STAY STRONG. You just have to fight for it no matter how dragging the situation may be. Go to places somewhere new to you, give yourself a break.
Let go and leave it up to God.
To someone who’s trying to help someone in depression, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT THEY EMOTIONALLY NEED YOU. They want your ears and affection. Let them feel you’re there and won’t leave them.
Don’t force them to give you answers yet because even them cannot understand why they’re having it. Be patient and try to understand their situation before you give any statement.
Trust me, it’s just a matter of time. We won’t be rushing into solving this.
I love you. We love you.
I WANT YOU TO KEEP IN MIND THAT THE ONLY WEAPON THAT YOU HAVE WILL ALWAYS BE LOVING YOURSELF AND KNOW YOUR WORTH.